gardengirl_34

House Part At the GreenHouse Dec.12

2008-11-24T05:18:18Z

Announcement!
Holiday House Part at the Greenhouse aka my house.
December 12th 7:00 pm
More info to come Soon!

Retraction Re: Blah blah blog.

2008-10-23T23:52:01Z

I need to apologize to Foogod, I miss interpreted our conversation. He never volunteered and will not be driving for the pub crawl on Friday, I will take care of it. Again sorry honey, I'm very glad you will be joining us, I hope you will enjoy it as much as I know I will.
This is why I don't blog about my life, all it does is cause problems for me. One simple little statement about my plans for Friday night, and suddenly I'm some sort of monster, who volunteers her boyfriend, for tedious tasks he never wanted to do. This is why I don't like to share these sorts of things on line, not only is he upset with me for volunteering him against his will, but now all my friends here can comment on how foolish I look.
Thanks!

Blah, blah blog

2008-10-22T21:03:14Z

So a lot of my friends have given me a hard time about not keeping up with my LJ, so here you go update on my life.
Went camping last weekend with K (can't remember her LJ handle, think it might be kattiis) and R, in Portola redwoods, lots of camping fun. Ate too much didn't get enough sleep. foogod came with, got to meet everyone so far he is getting thumbs up all around. Yea!
Friday I'm taking my "sister's" dad on a pub crawl in the city, we will start at Speakeasy around 5:30, then to Magnolia for dinner, then torronado for more beer. And if we are still vertical after all that, we will hit either Wunder, on 9th, near the park, or 21st amendment. Hurray for drunken fun. Again foogod will accompany, he has volunteered to drive, and therefore drink less. Thanks honey! kisses ***
Still haven't decided what to do for Halloween this year, there are a lot of things going on but nothing that really grabs me. I'm thinking dinner with foogod, C, A & Z in San Ramon, then maybe over to DSC, depending on how we feel after dinner.
It's strange to be thinking of myself as a part of a We, as apposed to an I. It's been a long time for me since my last serious relationship, and with that one, I was always an I when going out and doing stuff especially with my friends, as he didn't hang out with my friends. I have to say it is really great to be with someone who is as open to doing things with my friends as with his. Of course, I really like all of his friends, and love spending time with them, and I hope he feels the same about mine. I'm sure this is really not that big a deal, but it's a first for me, so therefore noteworthy.
Anyway, there you have it, my life update.

I'm at it again, aka Playing in public again

2008-02-25T20:29:18Z

Hi All,
I've decided I need to make this official in order to make it happen.
I will be performing at the Starry Plough (in Berkeley)again. Tuesday April 1st, April fools day! I realize this is probably not the best date to choose, but oh well, those who know me know I'm a fool and fools luck and all that Ha, Ha.
Anyway it's open mic so I have no idea when I'll get to sing and play, but you are welcome to come on down and hang with me, I only ask you don't laugh and point when I'm on stage, K?
Hope to see you all there.
Clare

My First Performance!

2008-01-09T21:28:03Z

So I did it. Last Night, I did my first open mic, I sang and played my guitar and according to my friends who were in attendance I didn't completely suck! Yea for Me!
In all honesty though it was the most nerve racking thing I have ever done, I was so nervous I was shaking up on stage, and when I got off stage, I cried for a few minutes, I just couldn't help myself. It was one of the most intense emotional experinces of my life, I am so glad I did it and I can't wait to do it again. I think I'm still high from the endorphins, either that or I'm just an attention junkie and I've found a good source. Either way I will definitely do that again, I'll try to let you all know when, but I'm not going to make a big deal about it.
Thanks again to all my wonderful friends who came out to see me, I really couldn't have done it without you all. Love Ya, Soooooooo Much!

Playing in public

2008-01-04T05:08:38Z

Hello All my Lovelies,
As most of you know I have been teaching myself to play guitar for the past few years. Well the time has come that I humiliate myself in public. I will be performing on Tuesday January 8th at The Starry Plough in Berekeley here is the link in case you don't know it.
http://www.starryploughpub.com/history/
So any and all of you that want to witness my first ever public appearance are welcome to come on down. the only thing I request of all my friends and relations that might stop by, is you must be merciful and give me encouragement while I'm on stage. If you want to give me your true opinion after I've finished you must first buy me a drink. ;) that's a joke just so you know.
But seriously, I'll take all the encouragement I can get. Unfortunately I won't know what time I'm performing until that night, if you want to know call me I should know by about 7:30 pm. Either that or I'll already be on stage, so I won't be able to answer.
I'm really nervous and excited about this very big step, hope you all can join me.
Thanks
Clare

CBD Update

2007-12-05T19:11:05Z

Date #4 was last night, Adam, a very sweet, very neurotic guy. We had a great conversation, we have a lot in common. I'm not feeling a lot of attraction but I suspect he is. I might go out with him again on Thursday?
No Date #5 at this time, I think I'll see how Thursday goes, before I schedule anything else.

Crazy Blind Date Update

2007-12-04T22:19:06Z

As some of my friends know I signed up for Crazy Blind Date a couple months ago. Just so you know CBD is an online dating service, were you get set up on blind dates. You only get to know the bare minimum about your date, and you can’t contact them until 30 min before the date starts. I’ve gone on a few dates so here is the report.
Date #1 Dan
Got stood up, which was not such a big deal. Means I had a drink by myself at Zitegiest in SF.
Date #2 Michael
He showed, which was a step in the right direction. Not my type, I informed him as soon as possible in the nicest possible way, he was cool. We had a couple drinks and a lovely conversation. Exchanged emails don’t know if I will see him again, I wouldn’t mind hanging out in a friendly sort of way.
Date #3 Eric
I should have known by the name this was a bad idea, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to date another Eric. Oh well, He also showed two for 3 Yea Me! He was not the best conversationalist, I felt like I was carrying the dialog the whole time. And he kept doing that thing were you both laugh at something and he brushes his hand on your arm or shoulder. I was not at all attracted to him, and a little uncomfortable with this contact, he didn’t even offer to buy me a drink. Fortunately he left early, I stayed at the bar, and started chatting with some of the regulars and the bar tender. A very cute young regular even bought me a couple of drinks, which I thought was really cool. I complimented him on his musical taste, we were listening to random stuff on his Ipod, and I fixed a whole in his gloves, with my mad knitting skills. After leaving that bar I stopped to grab a slice and started chatting with a couple of guys there, they invited me to join them for a drink, and I agreed. Very nice guys, in town on business, unfortunately both married. All in all even though the date was a dud, the night was really fun.

I have another date tonight, his name is Adam, he’s 34, 5’11”, a skinny white boy. We are scheduled to meet at the Albatross in Berkeley at 7 pm. Wish me Luck!

Alcoholic, Me?!?

2007-11-20T20:29:32Z

98%ALCOHOLIC

Sacramento Dating

None of my friends will be surprised by my score.
I only didn't get one right on the first try.

New oportunity, Yea!

2007-11-08T19:51:47Z

So as many of my friends know I've been going through a transition in my work life. I quit my very comfy corporate job in August, and although I've found a great part time corporate gig, it's still only part time. And while I am hoping to pursue a relationship with a local small business owner, who works in the construction industry, but I don't know how long that will take. So in the mean time I need to find another source of income. Preferably part time, so I can do both.
It just so happens that I was having a conversation with a friend of mine who works for a catering/event planning company. She gave me the contact info of the hiring manager, and said she would put in a good word for me. Now all I have to do is impress them enough in the interview that they will give me a chance. I'm nervous but also excited. This means I could be bar-tending again in a couple weeks. I really miss working behind the bar, I always really enjoyed it. And those who know me, have seen me at parties, behind the bar. That's were I always end up.
So yea for me, wish me luck and I'll keep you posted.

This is the part of me that needs medication

2007-11-06T20:30:16Z

I'm listening to the song "Medication" by Modest Mouse, the subject is the first line in the song. It made me laugh, cause that is how I'm feeling right now. Like today I'm in need of medication. I'm a confused, bewildered mess today. I really don't like days like this, and I've been having way too many days like this lately. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I hate being single, sigh

2007-09-21T18:47:22Z

So I had a first date last night with a guy I met on line. We agreed to meet at a local watering hole at 8:30 pm. I got there early as I live near by and wanted to have a chance to hang out and chill before he got there. I found an empty seat at the bar ordered a soda to start, and of course because I am a social person, started chatting with the bartender and the guy sitting next to me. A while later, I see this guy walk in, and I think it’s my date? I look right at him and smile, as if to say “are you who I think you are?” but, instead of coming over to me he sits down at the other end of the bar and orders a drink. I’m totally blown away. I have no idea what to do. The guy sitting next to me notices my condition and asks what’s wrong, I tell him. He suggests it’s the fact that I’m sitting talking to him, and that there is no empty seat next to me. Then it hits me, he’s totally right I sabotaged this whole situation, by making myself totally unapproachable. But now I don’t know what to do to correct the situation. I could of course move down to him, introduce myself and go from there, but I feel like a total idiot. I’m totally stymied by my own ego and my own insecurities. Fortunately the guy sitting next to me decides to take the situation into his own hands and moves to another seat, I only have to sit there for a few more minutes feeling utterly stupid before my date approaches. The worst part is the guy wasn’t even worth all this trouble. Can you say disappointment? Sarcasm and cynicism are just not attractive to me. Maybe I’m just overly sensitive, but I don’t think you should start ripping on your dates hobbies in the first 10 minutes.

Busy, Busy, Busy!

2007-07-24T18:59:50Z

Wow, just when you think your life can’t get any more crazy well, it does.
So I’m getting ready for Music Camp this week. My friends, family and co-workers like to give me a hard time about “This one time at Band Camp…” But yes, I’m an adult, and every summer I run away to the woods for a week at least to play music with other kid, er I mean adults. It’s really great, I’m still a SERIOUS beginner at the instruments I play so I learn so much when I’m there. I get to meet a ton of amazing people and have an all around fantastic time.
The best part is this year my sister is coming with and bringing her daughter, my niece (and the love of my life). I’m so looking forward to seeing how they enjoy the experience. I’ve decided to make it my personal mission to introduce my niece to as much music, dance and art as is humanly possible. I just wish I’d had a really cool auntie like me when I was a kid. I’ve also told my sister anything she (the niece) wants to do with regard to dance or music I’ll pay for lessons, cause I think it’s just that important.
The Boo is already in Ballet class and loving every minute of it. I can’t wait to see how she takes to the other forms of dance to be had a camp.
Can you tell I’m just a little bit excited! I just wish I’d had more time over the last couple of weeks to practice my guitar and violin. Sigh, oh well, I’ll get plenty of practice in the next week. Yea!

Technology Can't Live With It, sigh, Can't Live Without It.

2007-03-20T15:14:39Z

So, my cell died on Sunday, just wouldn't turn on, even when I had it pluged in. I took it back to the shop were I bought it. They replaced no questions asked, no cost either which is great. Only problem is I've lost everything that was on it. All numbers and photos. Boo Hoo :_(
Of course this means, I can't call any of my friends. So if you want me to call you, you need to give me your number again.
At least I got a free upgrade as the new phone I have is the latest generation chocolate by LG. OOOO. Are you all impressed?
I was also able to talk to someone about my cell service, and with some minor adjustments, I was able to lower my bill. Yea!
So I guess technology isn't all that bad.
Back to work!

Friday afternoon duldrums

2006-10-20T23:53:34Z

I have been down in the dumps all week. The whole dating thing has not been good for me lately, why can't people be honest about how they feel? I accept that the only hope I have of meeting someone is on-line dating, I just don't like the parameters. The waiting game you have to play. I hate being a victim to somone elses whims. So here it is Friday evening, and I've got no plans. I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself, I can't help it. I've had too many disapointments lately to not be a little sorry for little old me.